Wednesday, October 18, 2023

Yes, it is wonderful...

Little sweetheart, I was going through things here this morning and I came across a screenshot of a text you sent me (I have all of them!) on my old pre-iPhone phone. 

Yes, it is wonderful! 

Love you forever. 

Tuesday, October 17, 2023

Love Stories

It’s Halloween season, little sweetheart - a close second to Christmas for you as a favorite, I think - and I’m starting to work some seasonally appropriate films into my evening watching. 

Tonight I’ve got “Let The Right One In” on and of course I’m thinking of you because we first saw it together, renting it from Le Video and holding hands on your bed in The Inner Sunset. 

I’ve always held it as a love story although almost everyone says it’s not, pointing to the novel that was its source and other opinion pieces. But, like a lot of things, I came to it with you and in the giddy throes of your saving my life with a love that took my breath away. 

For me, Oskar and Eli’s story is like our own, however impossible that may sound to anyone else. Only you could have found me - perhaps through a thousand years of trying - and utterly saved and changed me. And given me faith that we are forever, you are closer than I can imagine and that I will be with you again so very soon. 

With all my love forever …

Friday, October 13, 2023

Friday, I'm in Love

My dearest dear Summer - oh, little sweetheart, I love you so! Tonight I was in the middle of something and suddenly really wanted to hear “Friday, I’m in Love” by The Cure. You and I were standing together in the kitchen in Kris and Joy’s flat in Kentish Town when we both heard it for the first time. Even though it had come out almost 15 years before you and I heard it then for the very first time and it became one of our most holy songs. 

Tonight, I watched I video with the sound up loud. I’ve seen it many many times and with you too but I cried and cried after. I’m still crying. I miss you so very much. It’s unbelievable how much I love you and how you absolutely shatter and put me back together again. I will always feel this way, I know. I love you with my entire soul and can’t wait to be with you again and forever on the other side. With all of my love, forever.