With You

Little sweetheart, someone I know wrote me a very sweet email last night, quite moved by what I've told her about you. I wrote back to thank her this morning and here's a little of what I said....

"Summer is in my every thought - in my prayers every morning as I wake and every night as I fall asleep. In my waking hours I do my best to honor and conjure her. My writing is of and for her and every album is too. I love talking about Summer, telling others of the miracle girl who filled my life with light and love. What remains of my life I hope to devote to her and I live in faith that I will be at her side again and forever in the blink of an eye. Summer is so much more than I can begin to say. She is (as she liked to say) my partner. My soul mate, my best friend. The love of my life. Summer wanted to raise a child with me. She couldn't carry a baby to term because she'd had a double organ transplant and was on amino suppressants (to keep her body from rejecting them) but she wanted to find a surrogate to carry one into the world for the two of us to parent. No one ever brought that up with me but Summer did. When I see children now, I so often see Summer in them and my eyes fill with tears, my heart fills with love and I know she is near me."

It's true, my love, that I will not know the joy of raising a child with you in this life, but who knows what is on The Other Side? Who knows? You do. You know and wait for me there. You know and will show me. I can hardly wait for that day, little sweetheart. But until then please be near me and help me do my best, won't you? Love you forever.