Another Trip Around The Sun

It's my birthday, little sweetheart, and this day will be forever twinned with the words I said for you on this very day nine years ago, as our souls are twinned and one forever. I love you so very much.

https://bipolarexplorer.bandcamp.com/track/the-choral-text-passage

Dark Outside Extra

Little sweetheart, we released that track we did for The Dark Outside, eleven:eleven, like I told you, and already it’s gotten some further airplay, kind words and even a bit of sales.

I think you’d love this project, little sweetheart. And now the guy who runs it, Stuart, is going to do a second bonus one, since everybody is still stuck inside during the quarantine.

So, we just recorded a second track - with you featured prominently, of course - for the new broadcast. It’ll be on first weekend of next from Noon GMT Saturday May 2 until it concludes some 18 hours later. We’ll all be listening.

It’s always so wonderful to be able to say to you, “little sweetheart - you’re on the radio!”

 

The Work Of Every Day's

If there’s one thing this quarantine is doing, little sweetheart, it’s keeping me focused on work toward completing the new album for you.

All the basic tracks are done and it’s a matter of further tracking, overdubs and finally the mix and sequence. I’d divided the tracks into three categories, sorta - the more experimental/ambient ones, the spoken word pieces I wrote for you that Sylvia voices and I will underscore and the more traditionally straightforward “pop” songs.

I’ll do work each day, usually finishing up with a rough mix of something, then either send it to Sylvia or wait because I still want to make some changes to the last thing I tracked. The other day, because the titles were all getting mixed up in her head, she asked me to read them all off to her and she made a list. There’s 26 of them just now! I figured this might be a double-album but it’s starting to look more like freaking Sandinista!

You’re already on several of them and as I get further along I know you’ll wind up being on several more - each album always being, of, for and about you. It keeps me close to your beautiful spirit, little sweetheart, to keep working forward each day. Thank you for finding me.

With all my love forever.

Keeping Watch

The other night, little sweetheart, I had the urge to watch the first couple of episodes of "The Newsroom", again. It holds a special place in my heart for a couple of reasons, both to do, of course, with you.

It was you have first lent me your family’s box set DVD’s of "The West Wing". I hadn’t watched it when it was on TV. I’m not sure you had, either. I think you and your mom watched it a lot when you came home to Davis before and after your surgeries, and it was from Davis that you grabbed the set - it was the first four seasons - and gave it to me to watch. You were so proud to have been the one to turn me on to it.

Later, after your tragic passing “The Newsroom” began to air and the night of its premiere, I was a with your mom and dad in Yuba City where we watched it together. We did that many times as the original series aired and many more after when we just felt like seeing it yet again.

There is something about that that is so special because it seemed as if we were actively conjuring you to be at our sides and watch it with us. And I think you were and are, as you help guide us all through these days until we can all be together with you again in the Forever, for ever. I cried and cried tonight, little sweetheart, just thinking of it.

Be close beside me tonight, won’t you, my little sweetheart? And take me to you the moment heaven will allow.

With all my love forever.

New Interview... About You!

Little sweetheart, the day after we released the new single, those Canadian podcasters, Limbocast, called me up for an hour long interview.

It aired this afternoon and can be heard here.

It was really wonderful to be able to talk about you and our music at some length. I love telling people about you, my gorgeous girl, and I think people really like getting to know a little about you - the angelic voice that blesses every one of our records.

I’m so proud of you! And I love you forever.

eleven:eleven

Little sweetheart, the track we did for that really interesting broadcast event in the UK, The Dark Outside, is being released today.

One of my favorite parts of it is hearing your voice soaring over the top. We got very kind words about it during the broadcast and I think ultimately it’s going to get further airtime in The Netherlands and maybe here on WFMU.

Little sweetheart, you’re on the radio!

https://bipolarexplorer.bandcamp.com/track/eleven-eleven

Life in Quarantine

It’s so weird here right now, little sweetheart, as everyone continues to “shelter in place” throughout this global pandemic.

NYC is the hardest hit place in the world - literally ground zero, again - and your dad has volunteered to come help as medical professionals have been called, urgently, too help staff the overrun hospitals, here.

It’s so like your father - the best man I’ve ever know - but we’re all so very worried about him. He’s already exposed to virus working as chief anesthesiologist at his hospital in California and now he’s selflessly volunteering to take his leave time and come here. We’re so proud of him, always, but terribly worried, too.

He’s so like you - full of love and compassion and just wanting to make the world a better place.

Please be with him, my angel, as you are with us always, I know, and help guide him and me, too. With all my love forever.

The New Month

Little sweetheart, it’s April and a flood of memories commit the turning of the month, each year.

I remember, for instance, that it was April 1st when I flew back out for the second long stay in SF that year we tried giving the city a shot together. I’d come out for two late January til mid March, gone back to sort out my sublet in NYC then back to SF, still looking for a place. The second leg was harder than the first and then I got a series of gigs back to New York, which eventually led to you thinking maybe you’d rather we were both here, instead of there. I just wanted to be with you whenever we found ourselves.

April reminds me, too, of our first days together, really begun that first year in February but growing so strong by April and your first visit here in May. I only really got to have my birthday with you one year, the second one, when you took me to see DCfC in Sacramento and made me spectacular birthday cupcakes as we decamped to the house in Davis alone for the week - possibly the happiest one of my life.

April reminds me too of the saddest, hardest days of all. Returning to New York for the three weeks between your funeral and my speaking at your memorial, held, incredibly on my birthday.

We’re twinned, my gorgeous girl, my beautiful spirit, my little sweetheart, forever. Two halves of the soul.