Today - Nov 13th

 Happy Birthday, little sweetheart. I love you so very much and forever.

Yes, it is wonderful...

Little sweetheart, I was going through things here this morning and I came across a screenshot of a text you sent me (I have all of them!) on my old pre-iPhone phone. 

Yes, it is wonderful! 

Love you forever. 

Love Stories

It’s Halloween season, little sweetheart - a close second to Christmas for you as a favorite, I think - and I’m starting to work some seasonally appropriate films into my evening watching. 

Tonight I’ve got “Let The Right One In” on and of course I’m thinking of you because we first saw it together, renting it from Le Video and holding hands on your bed in The Inner Sunset. 

I’ve always held it as a love story although almost everyone says it’s not, pointing to the novel that was its source and other opinion pieces. But, like a lot of things, I came to it with you and in the giddy throes of your saving my life with a love that took my breath away. 

For me, Oskar and Eli’s story is like our own, however impossible that may sound to anyone else. Only you could have found me - perhaps through a thousand years of trying - and utterly saved and changed me. And given me faith that we are forever, you are closer than I can imagine and that I will be with you again so very soon. 

With all my love forever …

Friday, I'm in Love

My dearest dear Summer - oh, little sweetheart, I love you so! Tonight I was in the middle of something and suddenly really wanted to hear “Friday, I’m in Love” by The Cure. You and I were standing together in the kitchen in Kris and Joy’s flat in Kentish Town when we both heard it for the first time. Even though it had come out almost 15 years before you and I heard it then for the very first time and it became one of our most holy songs. 

Tonight, I watched I video with the sound up loud. I’ve seen it many many times and with you too but I cried and cried after. I’m still crying. I miss you so very much. It’s unbelievable how much I love you and how you absolutely shatter and put me back together again. I will always feel this way, I know. I love you with my entire soul and can’t wait to be with you again and forever on the other side. With all of my love, forever.

 

Eire, pt 9

One last picture from Ireland, little sweetheart. On one of our hikes we found a stone circle and stepped inside it. Thought to be magical and sacred, it seems a perfect place to remember - knowing that you (and we) are forever and that we will find one another again. 

Eire, pt 8

On our final day in Ireland, little sweetheart, we were driving south down the coast en route to Cork City, when we came across an Irish country fair. We stopped and strolled the grounds - lots of families out together enjoying the food and the fall weather, prizes being given for giant vegetables, a dog race (!) with results being announced over the PA, rows of tractors proudly on display. Just lots of fun and a totally unexpected detour. I came up underneath your big black Zorro-like sunhat and took this picture of your beaming, beautiful happy face... 

 

 

 

Eire, pt 7

In the last days of our visit to Ireland, little sweetheart, we took another epic hike along the coastal path, ending with this shot of you against the sun setting over the Atlantic. 

Afterward, we drove to Bantry and had the most amazing dinner at our favorite restaurant, The Snug. You, Kris & I had the place almost to ourselves (a rare occasion -at the height of the season, it's hard to get a table at all, Kris & I would usually eat at the bar) and when we came out into the gorgeous star-filled night, there was a flock of swans swimming there in Bantry Bay. Magic!