Please Find Me

Often, little sweetheart, I spend far too much time trying to distract myself just to get through the days. There's something in that, I suppose, that isn't entirely bad but it depends on what the distraction is and it begs the question: why am I not doing the more important things? What am I so afraid of?

In a way, the answer is simple - I don't like my life and I'm lost, so lost, without you. One of my distractions is scrolling through endless images online. Sometimes that's not such a bad thing, I guess. It did lead to my finding several of the artists we've worked with for images used on the band's albums. But it isn't always the best use of time, I know.

That said, I saw an image this morning that I've seen before and I think even saved. It's a wonderful shot of a red-headed girl leaping into a man's arms on the street. You can't see either of their faces but it makes me feel happy a little because I like to imagine it is you finding me, the two of us finding each other again across space and time and eternity - all those boundaries that I know you can see beyond and transcend now and that I desperately long to see fall away so that I might finally join you in The Forever and leave this lonely, idle, hopeless existence of mine behind. (the photo is below)

Oh, my darling, please be with me today and guide me, won't you? And take me to you just as soon as heaven will allow. With all my love forever.