Whenever I’m feeling regretful, which is often, little sweetheart, and my heart is breaking for how much I miss you and how much I hate myself for wasting even a moment of the precious few I was blessed to have at your side, I hear your voice and it helps and comforts me. Whenever I think of something you used to say to me, maybe the thing that you said most often. And that is :
“You’re so good to me.”
You have no idea (or perhaps you do, you know everything, don’t you my darling girl?) how much remembering you say those words lightens my heart.
Perhaps, somehow, you knew exactly how very much I would need them.
Thank god (literally) for you, little sweetheart. When I despair so thoroughly, it is you who always picks me up, reminding me. That you felt that and told me so so very many times helps me forgive myself for all my many failings.
Thank god you found me. Thank god I found a way to show you my love and gratitude.
How I long for you! Thank you for sending these words back to me again today when the clouds were all around me. You clear my clear. You are the sky itself.
With all my love forever. Forever.
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