With A Heart Full of Longing And Love

Little sweetheart, I’m doing one thing after another tonight that brings you near.

Just finished mixing one of the songs for the new album, your voice soaring above all. Then found a YouTube video of a forum at the Kennedy School of Government at Harvard about the West Wing and burst into tears as they played the theme song, my first thought of your enduring goodness.

As I was thinking about that and how I’d like to express it maybe as the caption to the big photo of you inside the CD, someone said something that suddenly made me think about the song “Leaving on a Jet Plane”.

Little sweetheart, that was one of my mom’s favorite songs and everything came to me in that moment- all the loss and my love for you.  

“Every place I go, I’ll think of you
Every song I sing, I’ll sing for you
When I come back, I’ll wear your wedding ring”.

The song is written by John Denver, but the version my mom loved was the one by Peter, Paul and Mary, and afternoon that last line that Mary Traverse sings, they repeat, almost plaintively shouting in the background, “I’ll wear your ring!”

Oh my little sweetheart, I’m weeping as I write this. I miss you so! Please please please help and guide and take me to you as soon as heaven will allow. Love forever.