Christmas Night

Little sweetheart, night has fallen here. It gets dark so much earlier this time of year - it’s only a little after 4pm. 

Because we can’t travel and I couldn’t be with your parents this year, I sent their gifts out to them in advance for them to open on the day. Your mom just texted me the loveliest message, including a picture of the three little things I got her. 

I think her one of her favorites are the four little figurines of cardinals I found at Victoria Trading Company. Cardinals are such magical little creatures and legend has it that when you see one, it means someone very dear to you who has passed on has come to visit you. Remember, I was telling you about that just a few weeks ago here? You mom really liked the little cardinals, sweetheart. 

And the other thing that I  think was her favorite was the new charm I gave her for her charm bracelet. Did I ever tell you this, little sweetheart? Remember at our last Christmas together, I got you several presents? I think your favorite was that pink angora sweater from Victoria’s Secret. But I also got one of Joy’s famous silver charm bracelets with two charms to start your collection. You liked the bracelet but you were very honest - you weren’t crazy about one of the charms I had picked out! Ha! It was a high heeled shoe. You actually went online to Joy’s site and found several more you liked better. Since Joy offered to exchange the charms if I sent them back to her in London, we thought we’d send the whole bracelet too so she could affix the new charms. 

Tragically, we never got to do that. But I still had the bracelet and the next year for Christmas, I decided to give it to your mom, so I could give her a new charm to add each year and - like with everything - in memory of you, my sweet girl. 

All the charms she has so far are sterling silver but this one adds a little bit of color - it’s a frosted cupcake! And your mom absolutely loves it. It’s very cute and, of course, puts one in mind of you and your famous cupcakes - how you loved baking and frosting incredibly complicated cupcakes! - immediately. 

Christmasses are hard, little sweetheart, honestly - I miss you so. But doing things in remembrance seems to bring you somehow closer on the day. 

Please be with me tonight, won’t you, my angel? And take me to you the moment heaven will allow. With all my love at Christmas - and always!